Biena as a GIRL.

Well. I think, this again is recycling but it somehow is not. I made this letter-slash-story few months ago and I haven't published it yet.. I just want everyone to see it. They said that it isn't my best. [They said that It actually is my worst.] But I actually like it. Though altered, some things in the story happened to me in real life.

VOICE CALLS

Hey DJ,

What’s new? Are you happy with your new job? Are you and your girlfriend still together? Where are you right now? Those were my FAQ whenever we start a convo… I just don’t know what to say so I keep on repeating my questions at whatever time we talk. Perhaps, because we’ve been so cold towards each other for some time now. I know it’s my fault. I’m the one to blame for all this things.
I’m clued-up on how much pain I’ve caused you. I know you loved me so yet I still chose to break your heart. Not just once but a million times already. I don’t know if you’ve already forgiven me for what I’ve done unto you… but I’m on the ball that you know I’m so sorry.
I was so immature back then to keep you waiting for an off-putting answer. A big NO. Hmm, honestly? Every thing I’ve said before was the total truth. I loved you… I loved you with all my heart as you loved me too. Butterflies in my stomach just kept on flying each time I receive messages from you. It was my instant body reaction… even up to now. Remember the time you made me cry? I asked you to tell me your love story and I can’t help my tears from falling when you told me ‘our’ story without mentioning my name… I was so touched. Everything was close to perfection… we were so happy then.
However, I know it was me who turned this all into a big mess. I firmly admit it, I’m old school… I stick to my perceptions. You’re right… I didn’t give us a chance because I’m concerned with our five years age gap. But you, thinking that I only like guys who look like models is completely wide of the mark! Am I that judgmental? And mind you DJ, you’re one of the cutest guys I’ve met.
Perhaps, we’re destined to stay this way. Whenever I want to be with you… you’re ignoring me and saying that you don’t want to experience the hurt again. While, on every occasion you want to court me once more… it just happened that I already am committed to someone else. Just like when I told you that Vince and I already are in a romantic relationship. I’m very sorry I didn’t tell you as soon as possible. I know it was painful for you to find out that we’re already going steady.
I’m in no doubt that you’re currently happy, James. You now have a career and not just a job. You finally followed my advice! You are now a Disk Jockey! At last! Everybody’s able to hear your magnificent voice. As well as if I’m not mistaken… you and Trish are going steady for about a couple of years now… you two got together after you knew that I already said yes to Vince, right? I completely know that you’re so ok right now that’s why I’ll not break into your life yet again.
Actually, all I wanted to say is just that you will always be in my heart… and let me quote this from you… “I miss your voice”. Although I always here it on the radio.

It’s me…
♥Anna

PS:
Vince wants you to be his best man. You are the brother he never had. I know he won’t take no for an answer… we’ll finally be cousins… :)

Note: names have been changed